The End of Finiteness: Deepika Arwind
Curfew
(After William Carlos Williams)
For J
They unblooded your palms I heard.
Left you on hardwood floor and sunk
your bed where you once rested
on your man’s torso, in his sweat. They
unknotted your dreads uncurled your lips
plucked the silver from your arms unfleshed
your thighs struck the thick glasses from your eyes.
They undid each chord of the song. They broke
it down; it sounded like the sound of
and I could see through
city rain They untoasted your skin
blanched like vegetable, now fibre and string.
The worst:
they unlettered your lovers, so they couldn’t read
the poem that carried the night in its unrhyme.
but you would not cry
Breathing
is migration. One purposeful intake that will rest
in his stone-caged ribs for a minute century. Travel
that takes him from the echoing dark
of his mouth in sweet, sinking seconds.
Sometimes he also lets out a low groan enough
to redeem his exhaustion for days, a deep grey
black sigh that has the quality of
corrugated roofs. His hands touch the air
above his head. It looks as if his fingers
play a soft drum.
He separates every sheet of thin-filmed nothing
as his eyeballs plunge to edge of the earth,
but he has only reached the edge of the room. When every
part of his body is in vertigo; an indecipherable
elevation after all breath leaves him, slowly discovering
the end of finiteness: in his ribs, a ripple.
Mammals
We inhabit a tree in the pre-dark like early mammals, soft and brown. Our bottoms slide
against its coarse hide. Ours is a private ritual, you say, when we look for our ancestors
in the pixilated air. We look for the beginning of limbs in the sky, spread thin as palindromes,
and as simply. We have vertebrae, foldable ears. We give birth. How strange to see the world
in monochrome this way We’re taught we love we contemplate stains we may write.
Even the policeman who will soon drive us out of here is made of this cartilage and –
but why doesn’t he see the miracle of our journey to the branch? Or hear the gasp
in the general anxiety when we realise we are? We are. You say it many times like the first
words breaking the ice of a world tunneling orbits bouncing off hemispheres to this spec
on a slow-drifting continent reaching two people, stick figures in a comic strip of the cosmos,
of science, of disintegrating paper. This is the year of the tiger, you say,
when we see an emaciated dog eating out a rat’s heart.
That was us. That could be us, today.